this week i can't seem to avoid the topic of babies!

-next week's episode of grey's antonmy, christina finds herself to be on the 'mummy track'

-mark told me he bumped into an old friend at uni who was in her 2nd trimester and she's only 20! thankfully she's married otherwise, sigh, it breaks my heart to think of the choices single women have to make when they discover an unplanned pregnancy

-it is said that roman civil war that tore the former glorious rome apart could possibly have been prevented if julia, caesar's daughter- wife of pompey the great had not miscarried the only child of combined powerful bloodlines.
interesting story behind that,
there was a bloodbath at the senate house where pompey was, resulting in his robes being heavily soaked in blood, so he changed out of his regalia and handed to a footsoldier to pass it to pompey's servant to bring it back home to wash.
meanwhile, julia heard the commotion coming from the senate house but was unable to leave the house and found out what it was about due to her pregant state, and upon seeing the bloodied clothes of her husband, she hastily made the wrong assumption that he had died.
overwhelmed with intense grief for her supposedly deceased husband, she fainted and miscarried the only heir of caesar and pompey's blood alligence.

many have said that if the baby had survived, his birth would have prevented the most distructive of roman civil wars as caesar and pompey would not constantly be at each others throats.

- then today i meet such a delightfully bright toddler at the bakery, i waved and smiled at him and was returned with a toothless gummy grin and beautiful gurgle accompanied with an enthusiatic waving of his bunny soft toy, so there i was for several minuted in the queue playing peek a boo and making silly faces to the child, ahhh yes, it warms my heart, oh man i love children don't you?

and so you know the background inspiration of today's entry.

what would I do for my kids in the future

• buy them rocking horses, or moose for that matter! Ed must have thought I was off my rocker (harhar, get it??!) when I was happily playing with the moose he probably would have disowned me if I had tried getting on the rocking moose at IKEA, i would have if i wasn't wearing a skirt. luckily for him.

• cover the walls of my house, or at least play rooms and areas my kiddies would be at, with lots of paper, so they can draw on the 'walls' don't want to hamper their budding artistic talents, I'll even join in! I'll hang up lots of prints of Quentin Blake illustrations, and mostly impressionistic works. hopefully when i'm older, i'll have some time to copy master works, esp van Gogh! for my son's second name it'll be vincent, after my grand dad and the artist who inspired art for me.
  
  
• of course, no artist would be complete without finer literary appreciation of.. yes, ROALD DAHL! I adore that man, since.. Well since I could read which was around 5. His books embody the best and most interestingly intriguing imagination and artistic creativity, something I would really have to share the joys with my children.
  
  
• let them watch ZIIIIIIIIIM! That however I would leave to when they're of a more discerning and not to impressionable time of their development.
  
  
• use psych conditioning techniques on them! screw the moral ethics of that, at least I can study the actions of my children first hand and OF COURSE! I WON"T PUT THEM IN A SKINNER BOX! I may be mad. put not psycho despite what many of you think.
  
  
• buy them LOTS of pets! like cute dwarf bunnies, 2 puppies - a shetland shepard and a daschund, pretty miniature kittens. Of course for that, their father under NO circumstances would have the faintest dislike/disdain of animals neither must he be asmathic. It's bad enough their mom's gonna be plagued with healthy problems don't need their dad to be contributing more crappy genes than they're already getting from my half.
  
  
• hmmm this ties in with the above one, plenty of soft toys, and delightfully cute lunch boxes, if I have a daughter I'll try finding for a similar one to the baby pink and white checkered lunch box I used to have (in fact my sis and I still use it, it must be at least hmm 11 years old!) conversely for a boy, it'll be a baby blue one! Or nice demure vivid shade of green.
  
• tea parties! i ADORE tea parties, so my kids yes the boys included, we'll play lots of tea parties, where they'll learn the fine art of tea appreciation- lots to TEAch them. and also dress ups! oooohhhh fun fun *claps hands in excitement*
  NOTE: it seems that the things i'm subjecting my future kids too is very girly, so rest assured the boys would spend time with their father doing more masculine things as well (nothing excessilvey violent though) but in no way would i let my daughters feel left out though.
  
• lots of matching outfits! I'll buy them random costumes, and when they're 4 or 5, they'll be mixing and matching their own wardrobe - electric!
  
  
• not to mention loads of embarrassing childhood photos. Maybe videos would be really outdated by the time the arrival of pitter patter of little feet, but I want to film the family so they can look back and reminisce about the old times and grimace and cringe at their actions. Great fun!
  
  strange strange thing
• I'll let them eat veggies! at least spinach they'e got to at least like that, since that's one of the few veggies the veggie hating sandra would actually eat
  
  
• ABSOLUTELY NO SOFT DRINKS! I forbid that crap, hmm instead it'll be fruit/floral tisanes iced, it's healthy and you get all the lovely goodness of nature not excessive tantaric acid that's gonna corrode their oesphogous, stomach and whatever other linings of the digestive tract, otherwise how they gonna appreciate all the rice food I give them? haha.. horrid aren't I.
  
  
• hand them loads of my cds, records, whatever music to them, so they can see what they might like from there.
  
  Freud would have a field day when he sees how I raise my children, if he was alive to see that, he'll just die on the spot. YAY! good ridance to that sick degenrate bugger who the world and psychology would be very well off without.

16:31

I'm beyond busy all the assignments come flying at you at full speed before you know what's going on WHAM! 4 major assignments in your face, you know I basically hate political economy the most esp when it's involving a particular buddy of bush..
URGH

great I'm resorting to using my blog as a mass way of apologizing to people for not replying to their emails, squeezing in some time I've checked my inbox and it's crammed so much so that apparently for some weeks now I haven't been receiving ALL my mail, even so the 20 plus emails I have yet to read and reply to is intimidating in itself, sorry pretty! I'll get around to mailing you on what's been going down, besides the amount in my bank account and at a very rapid rate I must say. No brainers for guessing that it's the shopping sprees which are responsible for that.

anyhoo, too busy to reply to you guys and stuff it's this DAMNED essay that keeps me from going online and chatting cause you know self controless me..
I mean who wants to write a damn tutorial paper on.. The thing even more stupid that the paper itself it's is format. It's in 3 freaking parts!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?
I sure as hell can't

1. which sectors and which industries of the Australian economy are most reliant on government assistance
(NOTE: to answer this question combine the data from the productivity commission on assistance [which is budgetary assistance and tax concessions] along with other data that show sector and industry sizes (in terms of output and employment)
what are the characteristics of these sectors and industries that deem them most likely to receive the most support? (approx 100 words)

2. does business welfare contravene the basic principles of free trade? Explain your answer:

if no then explain how the two are to be reconciled

if yes explain where policy inconsistencies might arise

(approx 300 words)

3. use your answer from part 2 to evaluate the 2004 assistance package offered to sugar producers in the aftermath of the Australia US FTA negotiations (approx 300 words)

as you can tell that's why I'm dead, as if the pages upon pages of readings and notes isn't punishment in itself. man I need an essay to fall from the sky this weekend, seriously I don't care if it's a good or borderline essay, all I want is something fairly substantial to hand to the tutor on Monday..

ARGH

I'm freaking in a lousy mood right now, not even the though of being united with a nice pair of unique leather boots in my size would make it the slightest bit better..

oh essay oh essay
where art thou essay?

00:55

hear that? that's the sound of quite easily more than a thousand prepuberscent girls wiping away their tears, saddening ain't it - brandon flowers (yes! that IS his real name!) the rather swoon worthy even with a hint of eyeliner front man of the killers got hitched to his long term sweetie on aug 2 in some small intimate wedding in hawaii.. what you expected them to do it in vegas? come on growing up in sin city would have thought you a thing or two about the eventual state of vegas based matrimony
oh well he still hasn't lost his appeal, hmm leech said that mr brightside was..uh about a prostitute? dubious, i'll ask her this weekend when we go on another shopping spree, which this time would be a more sensible measured money spending time as opposed to last week.
01:42

my tres cool CD player is up and running after i had spent so freaking much on a voltage transformer since labelled all across the top flap of the philips box in huge bold print (that only a blind person would miss) was:

WARNING blah blah blah voltage does not apply to players in aussie, nz and blah blah blah, along those lines..

so then the philips customer care was closed by the time i realised the stupid above warning, then my mother was screaming at me, going on and on and on and on AND ON.. about me being so irresponsible for not checking it sooner blah blah blah, my brother is more responsible than me, the usual.
so called up best denki on the pretense that i had purchased the player from there and asked if the player could function down under, explaining to the salesperson that apparently the voltage in singapore and aussie were different, he then mentioned a realy simple solution - just get a voltage adapter..

then after the ordination service held in church, mom dad and derek stayed for the dinner with the archbishop fortunately for ness and i, our parents didn't get us tickets for the dinner so we didn't have to waste a perfectly good evening at some boring sit down dinner with predominantly an old fogey crowd (man i can't believe i just said that)
anyhoo so i was bugging ness with constant reminders to stop by sim lim on our way back home so i could get the damned troublesome adapter, and it suddenly struck ness that there was a hardware shop at farrer market so saving us the trip to sim lim, we got the adapter from there after much doubts as to what the hell i was getting exactly -
i had no idea what the voltage difference was and if i should get a step up or step down transformer (that's the only part in physics i would without an inkling of doubt would fail, much to mr yap's puzzlement, is that even a real word? oh well you get the idea)

i'll just fast forward over the part where i spent DAYS trying to open the damn adaptor with a screwdriver meant for glasses and when i finally did open it with the proper screwdriver borrowed from john the handyman of the college, i realised there wasn't a switch. frustrated that the stupid adapter said 'switch inside' i started picking at it viciously to which the little cover popped open.
behold
THE DAMNED SWITCH!!
i could have killed myself
throttled myself to death if it were possible

so was figuring out what the HECK you're supposed to set it to. then went online to find out the voltage specification of singapore and aussie, after more than half an hour shifting through useless sites
i kept getting pages on AC/DC after typing in voltage australia, doesn't help that it keeps refering me to anything that was remotely related to AC, as in the current, and that ACDC was an australian based band AND to complicate matters further, they had an album entitled voltage, you see my situation right

for your future reference
singapore's 230
aussie 240

FREAK! there was hardly any difference between voltages, once again i was overwhelmed with the urge to kill myself for that. i could happily plugged it in and it would be fine!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!! AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!

called philips customer care to be on the safe side, wouldn't want to make a $150 mistake should my assumption be wrong, and guess what?
no brainers!
it was certified as FINE TO JUST PLUG IT IN LIKE THAT!!

BLOOOOOOOOOOODY HELL!

and now i'm very disatisfied with the player, it's uber sensitive, comin upon a tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny scatch on the CD, the damned thing would deem it unplayable ie NO FREAKING DISC! ERROR! ERROR!

so now i'mfuming cause of that! all the effort and what did i get in return!

wasted hours and PLENTY OF FRUSTRATION and i'm highly irritated now..

GRRRR

01:23

i'm quite upset that i won't be able to catch RockStar INXS whilst i'm here damn! been following that show religiously..
well vote for Suzie! she's my fave, i don't know she's so cute, good natured and she's a really sweet thing..
http://spaces.msn.com/members/RockstarSuzie/
yep that's her msn blog space..

hmmm really adore the huge metallic disc earrings with amazing intricate engravings that she picked at the RockStar clinic. yay so vote for her k?
support MiG, Ty and.. basically that's it i guess, really was impressed by Daphna's performance of Joan Jett's Hate Myself For Loving You, was absolutely shocked when she was eliminated a couple weeks later, stupid world audience for not voting for awesome talent!! she's this hmmm feline grace and such stage presence, don't know why she was voted out! still reeling from the shock that stupid freaking JD's still in the competition..
really can't stand JD he's such a pretentious cocky condescending patronising person, he might do great musical arrangements but he's such a horrid attitude. apart from the comment that got the rest of the rockers worked up, ohhhhh unlike the other rockers who learn INXS songs because they have to, i know the song because i love the band.. something along those lines, wonder why they haven't put something in his food to screw up his voice, oh well, he singlehandly messed up's Queen's We Are The Champions (HA! karma DOES come back and bite you in the ass!) after bitching, whining, complaining the whole lot to Jordis as to why HE DESERVES to get the first Queen song of the competition instead of her,
i'm thankful that freddie mercury's already dead (rest his soul) otherwise he would have died hearing JD's slaughtering the song that he actually meant for it to be an anthem of sorts for the gay community..

well for RockStar INXS updates, just clicking on the side tab of MSN messenger it's the black and red circle with a white star in the centre, it's right below the normal contact list tab, you can't miss it.. conversly you can catch it on hmm star world channel 18 wed morning is the live broadcast on what's going down in the house and preparation for their weekly performance, and thursday morning is the performance ratings, and elimination round and snippets on what would be one next week. there's repeats on the respective nights, star world does about 3 reruns altogether for particular episode, go check your tv guide..

remember to vote!!
00:40

Man! I really wanna go for the bravery gig this Wed at the Metro Theatre, any idea how the one in Singapore went?
The tickets weren't as bad as i thought they would be, $41.80+Bf (what IS Bf? this being aussie and all, i'm guess it's proably booze!!) and it's held at a place i actually know how to get to! Let's see what's the line up for that night -

The Spark 8-8.30
Faker 9-9.45

the supporting opening bands seem decent enough,

woot! the bravery at 1015

i say they'll only come out closer to 11, it's always like that, i've never been to a gig where the bands performed on time or close to the stated performance time. stupid sound checks! Hmm poor me ain't got no credit card so i guess i'll have to make a trip there before Wed night, just to get a ticket.. darn. They're so strict about the cardholder being the only one who can collect the ticket.

I wouldn't be obsessing about it if I had not caught their performance live on MTV a few weeks back, they looked like they were KICKING ASS!! They got the audience into a wild rocking frenzy, such psychotic energy!
If someone hadn't described their music as electro synth and something along the lines of new wave 80 revival group reminisce of an edgier Duran Duran, (hmmm have critics and reviewers run out of bands to compare the up and coming groups?)
just recently on a MTV spot, the killers were hailed as our generation's answer to Duran Duran.

Starting to see a pattern? - it's either that I like these 2 bands simply cause they're supposedly derivatives of Duran Duran or.. hmmm that's funny I can't think of an alternative choice to that..
Sidetracking - hmm or could the reason why critics constantly draw parallels between the killers and Double D is cause both groups cite Bowie as a major inspiration to their music.. Quite possibly I suppose.

OORRR..

Duran Duran created the whole music genre of electro synth rock which later spawned the whole new wave 80's revival from there both the Bravey and Killers carved themselves out from the slightly edgy 'wannabe' pop/ mainstream pop/ rock-popular music that's been flooding the airwaves recently to this particular type of music that you can't quite put your finger on as to aforementioned category to would fit in.. And since the two groups placed emphasis on more synthetic sounds (which is characteristic of Duran Duran) people decided that they should be described at new wave, 80's reminisce, electro synth rock (blah blah blah whatever music genres and descriptions you would liberally use on Duran Duran)
ok my brain's burnt out rambling about really nothing if you think about it.. I'll make a horrid music reviewer cause I'll start thinking too much about obscure theories and concepts that have little relevance to the task at hand..

OH OH! guess what? guess whaaaaaaat!

For formal dinner tmr night, the editor of COSMOPOLITAN is our guest of honour, maybe I could send subliminal messages to her to put more photo sets of jolie and longoria *drool!
00:03

msn messenger has been rather erratic lately, so apologises for not being online as much these days!
18:15

*hic hic HIC*
curse you hiccups!
22:11

okaaaaaaaay, the whole point of me posting this blog was to say that since I'm sick and no condition to go out and have fun with the rest of the uni population whom are at the coolest party at Manning's SnowBall event.. Can hear the fireworks from my room man.. So saddening..

Guess it's consolation seeing all those scantily clad girls decked out in their clubbing/partying outfits going to the party and freezing their asses off whilst i'm in my new very adorable robin blue prep school sweater in a toasty warm room piled under a mountain, ok more like molehill of sheets, nice cuppa tea in hand..
Besides I'm saving money from the entrance fee and all the alcohol, yes yes alcohol's empty calories and something I really don't need at the moment..

Since I'm already doing a mindless post here are my goals for this semester!

1. Get a good role in the Missenden Players production
2. Try to weasel my way into the debate team although competitions have started already
3. Join the soccer team even if I can't play just for the exercise and accumalte points for my room selection process next year, i don't want to be living in a closet!
4. Lose another 4kg and tone up!
5. Get minimum Credit average for all my subjects but a Distinction for Pyschology, need to impress Michael Walker!!
6. Related to numbber 4, maximise gym membership.

i'll add more when they come to mind..

any suggestions people?

21:05